I keep getting caught in this vicious cycle, where I come to my blog and try to write something, and then someone’s post really catches my eye, I wonder into other ppls’ blogs, and wonder into YT, and then some more blogs….and at that point I totally forget I have to write and create my own stuff too :p

anyway,

some updates..

I’ve been busy catching up with a lot of MJ stuff lately. As I was growing up, I was never allowed to watch MJ’s videos or performances and never had a chance to listen to his music until I was like 15. (The first song I heard was You are not alone, and I thought it was so beautiful~ I still do). but, I’ve never seen or heard Thriller, smooth criminal, Jam, scream, billy jeans, man in the mirror etc.. so MJ’s death was a new awakening of his music for me.

But I hate how all the famous YTers and so many people rushed to produce videos with MJ or MJ tags in them.  Our lost is huge, but no need to try to feed off of that moment and gain subscribers.  It’s not just MJ, when Susan Boyle was hot everybody had to do some video with her name in it, when Swine flue was the issue, everybody rushed to it, when naked pictures were leaked, when Prez Obama was elected – same thing.. same ol’ thing.

It’s nice that you’re up to date and all trendy like that… but I can’t help but think how opportunistic theses people are =/

anyway, aside of MJ

I’m starting to get sick of doing nothing.  My life has been pretty much nonstop and intense, and doing nothing and just staring into space is killing me.  I thought I could do some relaxing and stuff I wanted to do once school was over, but this air of uncertainty and feeling of no progress in my life makes me feel like I’m nothing.  At this point, I feel like I really really need to do something.  So I finally started to look for jobs and think about what my career path should be. People always tell you to do something you like, but how many people actually end up doing what they like?

If everybody did what they liked, who would do the more difficult stuff? I think people should do what they are good at, not what they want to do.

That is the one thing that is really bothering me. 

I feel like I have an interest in almost anything and I try to spread out my abilities as thinly as possible and try to dip my foot into every single thing, but the down side of it is that my abilities are very shallow and I acquire merely any skills :’/

instead of focusing on one thing, my life has always been jumping around trying to explore different stuff.  I wanted to become a pianist (that failed after 13 years), I wanted to become a figure skater (failed after my pneumonia), wanted to be a dancer (failed, after some reality check), wanted to be a   I think I am good at things if it rests within my interest zone, but I get tired of it really quickly and look around for something more interesting.